BLUE SUNSET- A Novel in the Making



(The following was written around five years ago, a product of my wild imagination inspired by a heart that loves beyond time and distance- for everyone who ever loved and lost but still  believes in the magic of ONE GREAT LOVE)
*Shall I continue writing it? Is it worth sharing to the whole world? Please let me know what you think in the comment boxes.Thank you for your time...



BLUE SUNSET

By Sunsetzens

Chapter 1

This is a story that almost a year ago I did not dare to write….”a story which I said was too precious to me that it must be kept untold and unwritten…unread….even by me in the chasm of my mind….” Until such a time when it became unbearable to keep the tale unexpressed…it gave me dreams of the sun setting every time… 

“It was past midnight…I was having that dream again….” He was there…..just as he promised he’d be…..looking intently at me…his eyes were talking to me again…and I wanted to fly…have you ever felt that shuddering feeling that creeps from the tips of your fingers to your chest…making your heart beat like a thousand drums? aaahh sometimes I wish I hadn’t met him at all because each time I see him I die…I die a million times or more…..he was smiling and I couldn’t stop myself from drawing closer and closer to him….nearer to the setting sun….I’ve written about this moment so many times already that when finally I was in that oh so exquisite setting….I was so mesmerized I couldn’t believe my eyes….and I was there…just there….stuck and struck by the beauty of his countenance…his face was so unlike other faces I have ever seen….because…he looked exactly like me….save for the dimple on his cheek….for a moment or two I wanted to turn my back and walk away….to run as fast as I can…”why taste something you could never own?” my mind was yelling at me in a matter-of-factly tone…..and I…….I was frozen…..in time. in space…and I just stood there looking at him…at the face that has long been etched in my memory that even if he faded right then and there I still would be able to paint each curve…each line on his face…..aaaahhhhhh insanity…… The sun was bidding goodbye to the day……and all we had was that certain time in history…..all we had was that one ending of a day…..as I turned my head to keep my hair from obscuring my vision I felt the cold breeze caressing my face and I heard laughter somewhere along the coast….the water started tickling my toes….I was afraid…yes I was so afraid but I was that close to happiness that I mustered all the strength left in the insane being that was me and started to walk…nearer and nearer to the man watching the setting of the sun…. He was still there….making funny gestures…playing the part we carefully planned….to make this day….a day in never land….when finally I was beside him….our eyes locked….the sun seemed to dance as it took on a raging yellow hue that blended with the sky’s violet-blue. I felt rain on my cheeks as the dam that kept the tears from falling finally gave way…..my shoulders shook and he carefully drew me close, held my face with his hands and wiped away the tears with his thumbs…”please do not cry,” he said “remember…this time…this place…now and here is all we have. all we will ever have so please stop weeping” he said while giving me that oh so childish grin while winking his eyes that were so like mine….I knew I wouldn’t be able to stand his chagrin so in desperation I turned away for a minute….wiped what was left of the tears and started laughing out loud like crazy……………. I felt cold hands clasping mine…his, he was actually trembling like he did the first and last time we kissed….many years ago. he was such a gentleman to have asked me then in words I could barely hear “Can I kiss you?” aaahhhh the words echoed in my heart and mind. Funny thing was that my hands too were perspiring as usual and yah awkwardly were making involuntary twitches. Everything felt surreal. It was as if I wasn’t me at all…or am I already me now…I do not even know why I am writing this. I just know that everything I feel or felt were real…for minutes we just stood there facing each other, holding each others’ hands. looking into each others’ eyes questioning fate, searching for answers to questions we were much too afraid to ask one another…I had to clear my throat because the intensity of it all was making my breathing faster than usual and just as I was about to say something I can no longer recall he too opened his mouth and we were uttering words we didn’t comprehend because we spoke in unison. The absurdity of it all brought us back to reality. It was him who smiled first and seeing that burrow on his cheek instantly pulled my cheeks towards my ears. Bizarre but we could actually coax people into believing we are twins. “Let’s play a game,” he said. “Look into my tantalizing eyes Yore!” he said while comically gazing towards the sky and I replied while imitating him “hmmmm whoever said those eyes were tantalizing?” “Hahahahaha you! You told me Yore!” he was half arguing, half convincing me. And then our eyes met again. “Here’s the deal, whoever blinks first gets a kiss,” he spoke in a tone that made my nerves quiver. I knew he was joking. He then held my hand, looked straight into my soul and I braced myself for what was to be a battle of defiance. The instant I gazed into his being, I froze. All the memories hit me and the delight I first deemed was replaced by guilt and I, I closed my eyes. Then I felt it….I perceived the face that was so like mine breaking the barriers we built for years…and at the precise moment when his lips reached mine, my tears fell like time enriched wine….actually making their way into our lips making me open my eyes for a second or two and I could not believe what I saw…he too…he too was crying and instantaneously our lips parted but his arms caught me in an embrace that transcended time and space….ostensibly I heard a multitude of angels singing above the clouds…cheering two hearts, two souls that finally found each other after light years of waiting. We were there…we were there…at long last and even if neither of us spoke a word for what seemed like eternity we knew it was all made in heaven…and we weren’t ourselves. We were them…whoever they were who were lost in time…lost from each other’s arms for a long long time…..the humming of the cold breeze transported our minds to where we were and just as we turned to face the horizon…the sun was bidding goodbye and as we both gazed at the beautiful ball ebbing its way into the universe left unknown we sensed a certain connection with the sky, the sea and the rest of the universe….it was like one colossal ending with matching orchestra for musical scoring. Believe it or not I heard the notes coming from somewhere up above. Then darkness leisurely came like an uninvited guest and we knew we had to say goodbye…we had to say good bye….we simply had to bid goodbye…’til then…’til the next lifetime….I could not bear to say the words because that would have killed the still insane being that was me….so I just turned away….walked in haste…walked in haste as if running against time and space at the same time…

I felt the wind on my face and could taste the ocean’s salty wave…I placed my right hand on my left chest to keep it from bursting into a thousand pieces because I was beginning to feel it…the anguish and the pain of it all…I felt one great surge of emotion just as I was barely a meter to the car and my feet lost all vigor and I somberly gave in to my heart’s desire…I stopped running and sat there on the sand…..for how long I do not know….and the memories of long ago came both soothing and scorning me…. The hum of my own sobbing brought me back to reality, I found it difficult to breathe and I sat up in bed, hugged a pillow close to my chest and conjured the images of twenty years ago….. 

-to be continued- 











13 comments

  1. Yore and Blue, a beautiful love story that has no end ( yet? ) that I could not forget, and am glad for the story being told here again. they say, those who could write with deep emotions such as this, love so greatly in their heart.

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  2. I agree with Ate Betchai, you are such a loving soul Doc Zen. You can really pour emotion with your stories, love this one!

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  3. I can never write with as deep an emotion as you do. You should keep at it and continue. I'll be waiting for the continuation. Nakaka-in love!

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  4. emotions and sentiments well expressed, i suggest for a continuance :)

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  5. So pure and beautiful, Kulasa zen - straight from your heart going into mine. I could feel the emotions, the pain and the joy, and picture every scene with every word that you wrote here... you are gifted and blessed to tell tales that can move.. Please do continue with the story and please don't keep us waiting for too long, can't wait to read more.

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  6. So pure and beautiful, Kulasa zen - straight from your heart going into mine. I could feel the emotions, the pain and the joy, and picture every scene with every word that you wrote here... you are gifted and blessed to tell tales that can move.. Please do continue with the story and please don't keep us waiting for too long, can't wait to read more.

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  7. It is indeed a wonderful story to continue writing and publish it Doc :-) You are one indeed amazing author :-) Keep it up :-)

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  8. I love it! It's very emotional! The word blue and the word sunset all gives us the feeling of nostalgia.

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  9. Indeed, you have a great passion of writing. It showed how you put all together and make the readers think. Impressive!

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  10. go write the novel and dedicate it to me. hahahahahaha. labyew! ang walang kamatayang one great love. sometimes i wonder, is it that really great? LOL

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  11. Whenever I read a letter, I have to read it verbally and this one touched my heart. You perfectly described the feeling of being in love: The awkward moments, the kiss, almost every emotion of this letter was all intact! You made every reader draw closer and feel the same way with you. You did great on this letter and please keep writing! :)

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  12. I cant wait to read this in paperback!!!

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  13. Your story is full of emotion. But I hope you'll not be offended if I comment on the overuse of ellipses.

    But I think it will have to go through the editing process before your book will be published.

    Way to go!

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